Thursday, May 29, 2008

took care of it



don't wait for someone else to take care of it for you.

on the other hand,
i am crazy. i cannot sleep. no, i just don't try hard enough.

i gotta start downing sleeping pills soon.

assignment paintings


alina from studio (portrait of a studio colleague assignment)


alien communication (urban landscape assignment)

works still in progress. towards completion it always gets harder and harder, and i take longer and longer. i tend to skip from one painting to another and back to the older one all the time, to get that fresher eye and also from the fact that i get easily get sick after sometime. @_@

oh that's me in the mirror with my typical work painting clothes.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

feeling a little wasted

i am getting these frequent pangs of paranoia these days that just hit me out of nowhere. like someone or something is going to take me away.

not to mention i am not getting the quality of sleep at the right times at all. i twist and turn, even if i'm not alone, and my brain cannot stop thinking.

it's not like i'm thinking about anything worldly or intelligent, like modern philosophy or social issues. most of the times i'm recalling memories (oh how i hate the word) and people i know, or used to know. people who used to be there and not anymore, and people who never used to be there but seemed to have been around me forever. how things turned out, how things never turned out. how people change, and stay the same, in an incredible amount of ways.

i do not discover new wisdom from all this, but i do get enlightened on things about myself.
i discovered that i am a lot more emotional a creature than the impression i seem to project to people. now. and this is driving me a little bit insane, there is no outlet where i can feel comfortable safe to talk about some useless things that bring no conclusion. i used to have prav, but. gazillions of miles away, no matter how you look at it it's hard to keep up.

maybe i'm being a narcissist or an elitist with my thoughts. or just acutely embarassed.



time is an annoying thing. it would be nice if i had a little remote control of my own.
there are things you know you're going to go through. and you know it well. shouldn't you get a forward button to skip the achingly slow storyline that you already know? like how watching a movie trailer, you'd know the beginning, the middle, the plot twist, and the ending of the story.

there are things you don't want to experience but you know you will. and just thinking about it already gives you that experience even if the time hasn't come yet. shouldn't that be considered as something that's past?

could time be a little bit kinder and give some leeway?

Sunday, May 25, 2008

forgot




i forget the most important things and remember the most useless things.
it used to be funny.
not anymore.

Friday, May 23, 2008

flying V



Air Guitar!!


i need to buy lights for my room. the yellow lights is pissing the hell off me while painting. U_U
i've started painting at the balcony now, relying on natural sunlight. but i love working at night, so. i shall head to Brico store to get me some new white lights.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

beat freak me out


oh i am sooo needing education on graphic and text design and composition. *knocks head on wall*
this took me bloody ages.

oh brian is playing. ^_^ hope i can catch the actual party, but the exam is being an ass for taking dates around june. U_U

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

storyboard


worked on a storyboard for george. these are random snippets of it.
ps/ it's my own apartment actually! =D

Monday, May 19, 2008

WIP: flyingV



ohgodohgodineedtostudyohgodohgoddenialgahh

Friday, May 16, 2008

sketch bulk2













since i also write some very personal things in the same book i had to censor some parts. lol. the opposite of the page with the sketch for ''don't let alcohol spill in your words'' are just song lyrics for the band so it's okay. ahha!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Shimetara Daijoubu


i'm still into the pixels thing it seems. it's a nice element to explore.

....not much comments on this one. it might be a wee bit too emo. *shrugs*

oh ps/ i just watched the movie ''Hanging Garden'' (2005). very, very, very, awesome. somehow a twisted family like that seems nice to have, i suppose it'll give you some different outlook on things. @_@

everything's gonna be okay if you close it


actual title that popped into my head: Shimetara daijoubu.
i just have been indulging in japanese movies and comics these days that i speak japanese to myself. yes, you don't have to tell me how lame that is. i can't help it so let me be!

oh and i seem to have problems finishing an artwork. but i don't want to not draw something that pops in my head just because i'm not done with one, i don't want to lose the feel that i got at that time. is that childish of me?

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Monday, May 5, 2008

don't let alcohol spill in your words


i realise that i have low tolerance to drunk people, and even less for drunken people who talk.
i made my mind up on that after witnessing many unsightful drunkards in vama this week. i don't see the point for these people having fun and completely forgetting everything the next day @_@

advice to self and everyone else: if you get drunk, don't talk.

oh i had loads and loads of fun drawing the small lil censorship pixelated boxes. that i don't mind so much even if it didn't turn out easily recognisable. =D

Thursday, May 1, 2008

may first.


happy labor's day! ironically i'm posting a work on this off-day. then again i don't actually hold the right to celebrate since i'm not techniccally in the labour community. gotta do something about that.
anyhows, i just thought of posting some scenes of a storyboard i've been helping ismail out with.

yesterday was a weird day though, i keep bumping into people i knew on the streets. now, bucharest is a pretty small town and people tend to go to the same places, but still. maybe i'm getting that weird feeling again of bumping into people because i haven't been out of the house that much in daylight.